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hey people! i'll be using this url for the moment yars.(:
don't have to relink. i'll change it back to vivienstheone soon! x)
and don't tell anyone. xD they ask from you, ask them ask frm me! haha.
cause, i think my mum read my blog, argh!
cause she ask me 'you still got cantact qinggui ah'.
wtf? sorry. =\ but.. yar. -___- i just told her recently then get into contact and i told her things like 'mummy don't worry, i wont fall in love with him again. you're right, im too young to know anything, he has a gf now anyway'.
trying to fake through it, but it hurts my heart la. :hais.. he's like treating me so nice can, and having my name on his msn personal message, okay, i want to be on his nick, not personal msg! (but he removed HER* name on his nick.)i dont wanna be second, OH, this is CRAP please! i don't even want anything to do with him can. STUPID! ya, stupid! i know i shouldn't be doing this la. =\ sorryyyy.. but everything just reminds me of him, lst night went over to my cousin hse, then gt this 'han yu pin yin' map so cute, will talk wan, then reminds me of renfred sing the song! haha, oh by the way, NICE jennifer gave that tape to me! x) yar, then i watch renfred 3times this morning while trying to concentrate on my wrk. haha. uh well, and renfred reminds me of him. ahCRAP, chungngam wants to meet me today, cause he's coming to TM. BUT! qinggui wont be there, so what's the point? i mean it'd be worse if he's there. hais.
why did he gave me hope by showing so much concern and yet he's the one who dashed it?
what if the only one who can stop me frm crying is the one who made me cry?
WHY?!
this is like CRAP.
ahhhhhhhhhhhh!
i might just be a les one day, girls are much much better than guys!
SIJIN; 95%! you're mine forever! xD

ahWELL, school's starting tml, so crap please! i haven't done any of my hmwrk, anyway. i dont intend to do math&geog&eng YET. just going to do my sci mindmaps, cause mrs.lau wrk cannot drag. and i dont wanna go back to sch tml la. i dont wanna get back my math, i'll flunk real badly. HAIS. the thought of going back to school can make me cry, REALLY. hais.. we must go back to school for another 3mths with MORE STRESS till the nxt june holidays. hais... HELP PLS. I HATE SCHOOL! when school starts, i won't be chatting with qinggui&sijin so much alr! i'll be like mugging. yes, i will. i wanna get my math right la. i cant fail forever rights! i wanna take POA one leh. =x cause, hmec,d&t and art seriously kill.! so its either A math or POA, but A math. WAH! POA is enough ok. x) i wanna take pure geog!(i think) haha. yar.. pple aiming for triple sci but i dont want, i only want bio, LOL! so forget it la. -_____- yaryaryar! i'll be mugging with xiuwei every wed! i planned out everything le kay! and i still need time to prac my dizi! the SYF song is a KILLER and dizi need take exam end of year. STUPID, how am i going to manage all these?! haiss..

yarr.. i read a story on someone's blog, i know i souldn't be like bowing down to idol like renfred. and going so crazy in love with qinggui. i know i know i know! i will reframe frm all these okay. *sighh.. i know i should bow down to only Him and love only Him like crazy. hais.. ya... but i just gave in to temptation la. =/ i will reframe frm all these, i admit they are all takign me away frm God. ahBLAH!
i need to be at my grandparents house by 4pm. and i'll be hme at night and i haven't done the hsewrk and i need 4hours to do m mindmaps, 1hr each! yaaaaaaaaaa... KILLER.


haisssss..
QINGGUI AH QINGGUI..

just what do i see in you?! hais. :everything.

hais! i need to rush, time is running short!
sch is starting soon in anthr 18hrs! x)
CRAP, its reminds me of him, again!


people! tag lehhhhhhh!x))